Monday, May 21, 2007

Blue Monday

Well, today has been a bit of a roller coaster. I didn't sleep well last night, but I cheered up a bit at work when I realized I had a 4 day weekend coming up. I got a good chunk of work done, but the lack of sleep was really weighing me down. I left half an hour early. When we pulled into the parking lot I saw a kitten resting on one of the parking bumpers. Josh and I had seen a kitten that morning leaving, and truth be told I had thought about it several times that day- perhaps hoping that it would be too adorable to resist. This was a different kitten though. I went in and told Josh, and we decided to see if we could play with it. But when we got close it was obvious it was really sick. One eye was crusted shut, and it could hardly move. Flies were buzzing around and it was the color of a ghost. We weren't sure what to do, but we knew we couldn't just leave it. I called our regular vet, who was just about to close and they told me about a clinic not far from here. We put him on a towel in Marvin's cage and tried to get over there before closing. When we got there it was worse than we thought. We had to make the decision to put the little stranger down. The doctor said he would definitely die if nothing was done, and almost certainly die even if they did all the things he would require. He was overcome with fleas, had a chlamydia infection in his eye, probably had worms. He would have needed a blood transfusion, which a kitten his size would be very unlikely to survive. I started tearing up as soon as the nurse had mentioned it in the lobby. They tried to make me feel better by saying we did the right and responsible thing by trying to help him, and that he would be better off passing this way than all alone outside. By the time we walked out the door I was bawling. I know it's kind of silly, it's not my family pet. But it's so sad to look at this tiny little creature and know that it has to die.

So, I didn't feel much like cooking after all that. I'll shift my weekly menu around. We had some Jack In The Box, which isn't great, but I'm not afraid to admit I'm a bit of a stress eater. Our new TV stand came, but I don't know if we have the time, or the strength to put it together.


love.boxes said...

I'm so sorry. I can stand watching anything die. It makes me so sad. I hope you feel better soon.