Changes

I have a sometimes overwhelming fear of change. How do I move past this? Sometimes I yearn for change so much, but am terrified into inaction. I wish I would have some kind of epiphany, but as long as I have to be my own catalyst I don't see things changing. Oh, neuroses, why must you be such a pain in the tush?

Last night I made an unsuccessful trip to Old Navy, after a trip to Borders with slightly better results. I got my sister's birthday present, which I forgot to bring with me today to mail. I also picked up the new issue of Blueprint, but I haven't had a chance to really delve into it yet. Wandering around and looking at all the books that I would love to read makes me wish I wasn't such an incredibly slow reader. Trying to keep up with my Newsweek subscription is hard enough. I haven't really read anything of any substance from a book in months. Time to start one up again, but I'm unsure which one. Also overwhelming is the size of all the books I was coveting at the shop. 400 pages, 500 pages, more even? Probably take me a year to read just one of them.

I feel like I need some cheering up. This cheers me up quite a bit.

The Last Dance

Confession time- I am the biggest Dancing With The Stars fan. And it's not the celebrity or reality aspect to it, I'm actually a ballroom dancing nerd. When American Ballroom Challenge was airing at the same time I was in heaven. DWTS becomes a real obsession for me. I've watched from Season 1, Episode 1 forward- missing just one week while we were on our honeymoon. And I've been a bit spoiled because the last 2 seasons my pick has won. This time was different though. I could tell going into the show last night that Apolo was going to win, but it didn't take any less sting out of Joey's loss. Joey Fatone was definitely my favorite. In last night's episode they said he received more standing ovations than any star, which speaks for just how entertaining his performances were. The end of the show is a double-edge sword for me. It kind of takes over my schedule when it's on, so I look forward to a bit more freedom once it's over. But at the same time it's hard to say goodbye to your favorite show, and play the waiting game for the next season. Plus it's not like I have a lot of other ballroom dancing options to watch when it's not on air, ha. In tribute to Joey I wanted to post one of his best dances, but I love them all! So, I just went with his freestyle since it was danced to the appropriate Donna Summer classic- "Last Dance". But, if you are nerdy like me, you should check out youtube for his tango and his paso doble.